my quadruplet of princesses

indeed i feel good about having this space 0f my life especially about the crowded space between me and my four girls. They are 18 to 8. Managing them single handedly just like having quadruplet of toddlers. I am pulled into too many directions in every moment of the day. Time went by. Every second of the last 8 years was solid proof of the "tough-get-going-when-the-going-gets-tough". I pulled thru the obstacles be i got what i set for or i didn't. I have so many targets, for the children and for me. I divided them into short term, long term and immediate as well. Too many targets which I do not know which have I really achieved. In the mess of wanting to do this and that, or should I say, more or less wanting to do everything in the world; every now and again I will try to compose my self saying to myself that God has granted my unspoken wish -- to always be with my quadruplet of princesses. Nothing compares to this. It's core to my every target --- able to give a better life to my girls, financally more independent, better education program, better and more opportunities and many, many, many more. I venture into many things. I tried almost every possible, or should i say, legal way to realize what i aspire for the children and I.
I found shortfalls.
I learned whats not in any book.
I experienced unexpected detour.

..... just to mention a few. I want it or not, my quadruplets are observing what is happening to me and suffering along with me. .....and I wish time will one day tell me they benefit thru this.